Mad Loaf Guy

Okay so I yelled at my friend the other day. I feel like it’s enough with her bullying me and insulting me. The thing is I love this girl, not in the wanna date kinda way I love her she’s my best friend. She hurts me and I feel sometimes like she wants to hurt me. She knows she’s not being nice because she’s said she’s not being nice and yet I can’t deal with it anymore. I cry so often now about her it’s not even funny. Everyone tells me behind her back that they are glad that I stood up for myself but nobody sits her down and reminds her that she treats me like this. oh people make promises, yeah i’ll talk to her but nobody does. and once again i feel forever alone.

/rant

People used to talk about you. They still kinda do, not directly but a bit. I used to protect you. No she’s not I’d say. Cause you’re not. You’re not a slut or a whore. You didn’t deserve what has happened to you. For any of it. I stood by you because I know he would hurt you. I knew and still know that he’ll hurt you one day. Hurt you so much it throws you over the top. I couldn’t be the backup, I don’t even mind anymore. I used to mind that you’d chosen him over me, but it’s not that anymore. It’s your inability to care about me. Your inability to see that I spent hours on trying to make you feel better about yourself after what happened kills me. It makes me so angry.

Bitch please.

When you tear me down emotionally everyday without even knowing it.

You really don’t. You actually came to me and asked me what to tell him when he asked you out. Then turned around and told him not to leave you alone with me. I don’t know why it’s all of a sudden this week, just I’m kind of done with the bullshit. I’m not like ignoring you, just taking a break.